So. It only took 11 months to get common sense, eyes opened, talks heard by germans, americans… whatta shame. No words to describe the level of dissapointment. As if the people deciding are retards. And I am not kidding. To be not able to hear and understand what we, neighbours of terrorist state Russia, were telling them. Telling from the first week of the war. I think it was the day eight when president of Ukraine called for help with heavy weapons. Nothing. Talking heads thinking they know russian mentality, understand russians are crazy stupid and arrogant? Right. No. They lived in strangest of illusion for months, fuelled with stupid hope that there will be sense (?!) in russians heads ;). The main dissapointment for us – us, the countries that have been occupied by and suffered from constant russian arrogance and stupidity for years! – was that nobody listened to us. We, the neighbours, bordering countries. Together with Ukraine. The fact that nobody listened us cost Ukraine the life of hundred thousand civilians, including kids. And its still counting. I dont know how the talking heads can live with themselves now. Its their fault. Would they decide right when this horror started. Would they decide to send the tanks immediately or at least within few months…. but no, they are smarter and sure russians are too (you know thats irony, right)

Unfortunately, after decades of observing russians, working literally exclusivly with them all my adult life (because they were sent here after IIWW). Plus, my childhood was exclusively under russian occupation (and now I can say, terrorism!), I feel and know for a fact that I know this strange species that is called “russians” very well. And that is not a good species to put it mildly.

They say good judgment comes from experience, and most of that comes from bad judgment. We had no bad judgement. Everything was decided without our participation. We only learned to live, survive and shut up. Anyone slightly rebellious was prosecuted, killed or simply sent to vast wonderland of Siberia with one way ticket. In cattlewagons. For later reference, the word and the meaning of “cattle” seems to be of primarly importance when talking “russia”. So when you were stupid enough, living in your barely surviving “farm” – meaning one cow and a handful of chickens – and had your cow knocked up. You know what happened? The russians came and took the calve, killed it and ate it. Smarter ones waited for autumn and came and took the slightly grown calve. And killed it and ate it. What, what did you say, they paid in cash? 😉 humor kept us alive, yes. If you protested, you got kick in the head with the rifle. If you protested more, you got shot right there. Same with any cattle. Only one cow was allowed, only 4 or 5 sheep, pigs … well, the average healthy pig had 11 to 13 tiny piggies. Had. You maybe saw them. If “lucky” you get to feed them for few months until the representatives of russian terrorists came to collect.

That horror we lived. Killing civillians was, ofcourse, seldom after 1950ies, because we learned to shut up. We let them take whatever they pleased. Only to spare own lives. However, under oppression one learns new skills. And, as stated beforehand – russians are not very bright. More like stupid cattleforce. I am still amazed how this kind of people live rather long life. In theory they should not survive, evolution should work. But we have modern medicine, which now has served us in a negative way.

So the shootings sort of ended and harassement became more or less “civil” by the 1960-1970. They just harassed, observed, stole our livelyhood by declaring limits and taking “excess”. We sort of obeyed. Because our lands here have some 60-80% of forests, and we live here all our lives we knew these forests as our backyard. Our first neighbour lived 3 kilometres away. Roads were minimal and these same roads we have today. All in between the roads were huge masses of forests. Forests that we knew as our backyard. And in these forests we hide all our “excess” cows, lambs, horses. And these idiots (read: russians) never realised. I worked as a child from when I was almost 5 years old. My tasks were to find our animals in the forests or hide them in the forests. I had to find cows on time twice a day. It took some time for them to realise where and when to come and they started showing up by themselves on time. But the work still remained as if the leader of cows died I had to train them again next year. And we had to change the location every year too, in case some helpful neighbour ratted us out.

I am proud of my country, our rebellious souls, our clever minds, our surviving skills, our look to bright future. We dont go back. Ever. Never. That is exactly why we understand Ukraine. That is exactly why we support and help Ukraine. Because we are today and have always been pain in poo-tins arse.

In a way this is exactly what todays talking heads in Europe and USA dont understand. These people never had hunger, never suffered oppression, never worked for free or for a piece of bread. They never were forced to speak strange language. They never were punished for speaking own language. They never were forced to sing hail Lenin and march with red russian flags. They never got paid for months work in toilet paper. Monthly salary was pile of toilet paper. Not money. Not even vodka. 

This is what president of Ukraine remembers from his childhood. Maybe. Maybe even worse as he is jew (in our country that was not much of emphasised “problem”. We did not have any racisim or nazism as far as my family and friends remember. And again, it doesnt mean in some end of the country there was 1 skinhead or looney). We are the same age with president of Ukraine. And that is what I remember. This is galaxies away from the memories of todays talking heads of Europe and USA. And that is why they dont understand that there will be no going back, no going back to be part of anything of russian origin. Russians live like cockroaches, within their own shit. Whatever they touch turns into shit. Whatever they say makes no sense. They are raised cattleforce, sent to die as cattleforce. Todays russians never had own ability to think. The bright people were killed or sent to Siberia. What was left was bottomscrapers, meat for cannons. And thats not utopia. Thats facts!

The bright russian people today – not to be offended by the above, dear, but you are a rare vision. I start to tremble when I hear russian language. I have enough of the cockroaches. They are fucking everywhere. And from only a look you cant separate the normal people from the arrogant russian nazis. That is why we are cautious. Because your nation tried for over 80 years to destroy us, many of you still consider being of higher quality than locals but still dont speak the local language. Where else in the world you behave like shit? Everywhere. In Turkey, in Egypt, in Germany. Everywhere. You are referred as cockroaches. To my surprise you are referred as cocroaches EVERYWHERE! 

That is what Europe and USA dont understand. They have no experience surviving russian occupation. And they ignored what we said right from the start of the war. Because they thought we are bluffing. Because they thought poo-tin is all fluffy and pink, must not be insulted or he will cry.

That is why Ukraine will not give up. That is why we, neighbouring countries support Ukraine so fiercly giving our last to them. 

I actually lost my work because of the war. And I actually shot myself to my foot when I turned to our governent with request and actually rather strict order! to close the borders for food supply. My company moved foodstuffs to Russia. Whole trainloads of it. Years and years. And months after the war started. Then I realised I am feeding the terrorists and called up our government to close the borders. Close the borders for me. I knew I will be without income. But I rather starve than feed the killingmachine. Government finally closed the border for foodstuffs somewhere in October or November 2022 and by now all my savings are gone. Its February 2023 in few days. I will support Ukraine. I will suffer because of it. I am ready. 

NO GOING BACK. 

Slava Ukraini!