Take my hand, and hold on. 

I am standing right here for you. 

Monroe hips.

My secret love is Tom Waits. 

One of many secret loves that I have 😉

Came out of home today. Blast of heavy rain to my face. Wet in an instant. Why to bother really. I didn’t bother checking the weather first. So I was mentally ready it will be nasty. Autumn is the season of adulthood, ripeness, juicy smells. And death. Giving up. Running out of last power to stick around. Losing reasons and motivation. A small step more and it’s sterile soft white snow. Just a small moment away. Dreadful. Yet my favourite time to fiddle with my inside thoughts, calm down. Calm with another round around. Full moon. Or aurora borealis. There is more and more aurora here it seems. Or, people have more and more fancy equipment to take videos and pictures of it at night. That could be the reason. But I don’t bother. I would love to go to end of Norway to see the aurora, here I am just too lazy. I don’t bother to do any fun thing alone. Kind of pointless. Aah, for the ones that don’t know what aurora is: it’s called also Northern lights or also Polar lights. It’s the magic of sky turning into colourful play of lines, waves, twists and turns at night. There are, for instance, see-through campings in Northern bit of Europe that one can rent and just lay in bed and watch the incredible show through the glass roof. Another thing that has no point in doing alone. 

The positive side of autumn is that stuff gets ready. And school starts again. In our dark part of the world being idle in winter would result in chaos. We need something to keep us busy. Otherwise we would just drink ourselves to death. Some folks do that actually. Either drink so much that body gives up, or drink a lot and then go driving and end the trip right on the roadside by that huge tree. Tho I certainly was born in a wrong country…. It took me years to realize that. I always felt out of place. Every winter I died. Physically. For 5 months in a row. Agony. Until I took my suitcase and left for a few weeks in winter. I realized I need sun. More sun that we have here. I came back from the trip and the energy that I gathered from the sun lasted another two weeks here. It was an interesting realization. I also found out many people here live a two phase year – some half year here, other half in Thai or Tenerife or any other warm place. These folks must be geniuses. And rich enough. I aint much rich especially today with the war going on next door. So far my work has been physical – actually moving things around. I have not been able to find the magic of online work that the young people do. I am right there – too old for some things, young for other things.

Now ever more I seek for something called alternative lifestyle. Could be someting to do with languages, travels, design. Don’t now really. AI is taking the language skills over. Soon we will go around waving hands only, as a language. As we do already sitting in the trafficjams 🙂 the singlanguage has taken over long ago. Going back to basic! Simple pleasures, simple ways. Who would have thought thirty years back that young people seek for a farms, countrylife to raise a family and to grow their food. Live indeed goes in waves. Waves in each persons own life, choices, happenings. And bigger waves as in society in general. Hipsters took over suburbs ten years back, now that’s not hip anymore. Today young folks with babies and toddlers roam in countrysides to find livable housing and dump the citylife. Well, that’s a welcomed move! Especially if you know how to survive in the country, read: know how to earn a living. Being homeless in city is much more easy then being homeless in a countryside. Believe me, I know well. Too well. 

So the sun is up now. Smells of autumn. I will dig up my autumn gear, all them pullovers, cardigans, hats, scarves, boots. Probably need an umbrella too as I love a stroll in forest or park in autumn. The best time of the year. Until better time comes :).

Stay warm and cool

PS. JD, I am sure the parcel I sent has reached the destination. Could you please give me a sign.