It is a dark day when conversation with meth addict makes more sense than that with your family member or co-worker. I just realised the modern world just ain’t worth the bother. It’s no point in explaining your view on anything. Just leave. They will learn by themselves if lucky. Or, they will not learn. Either way it’s none of my business and they can do as they see fit. To each to their own. 

I figured I only have to hold my own hand. Nobody will hold mine. Except me. I can be perfect at wifing, but still have to cook for just me. To not waste produce. Haha, in fact, sometimes going to restaurant is, in fact cheaper. Considering the electricity, water, time and cost of wine and candles it might aswell be cheaper to have yourself a merry little evening. A date for one. I am pretty good at it except the talking part. And being alone at the table in restaurant I thing probably would be weird if I laughed out loud alone. I am good at entertaining myself and with todays mobile entertainment centres a ka phones I can fulfill hours! If you go to market and take duckbreast, today 1 kilo is roughly 25Eur. Then you get some asparagus to go with it, 10Eur a bunch. I love asparagus with bacon and drissled over with butter, real butter. Butter butter as one might say. So I take two bunches, 20Eur. Now butter, last I saw was 3Eur. Now maybe a good rose. Or two. Then you drive home. And, it could be that you fuck the duckbreast up as you were opening the bottle or something and it all got burned. Theoretically that can happen. Never happened to me but it could! So you do have only asparagus and wine 🙂 and bacon because I always have bacon in the fridge. That’s the most constant diet I have! Wine and beer (beer is mostly part of my summer diet or a must when time for sauna) bacon, butter, carrots, brokkoli and califlower, asparagus if lucky, always real farm eggs, and a lot of milk. That’s the basics in my kitchen. When in mood then I always have seafood and fish too. My favourite is real trout or salmon caught by friends on island. Really thinking of getting my fishing gear again. Last I went fishing probably some 20 years ago :).

So yesterday I went to my cottage and re-designed the cats feeding house to accomodate them during winter. It is a small kennel that I made few years back just to keep the food for them. Now I saw, obviously, they were freezing in -18C, shaking and starving. So I got the polypropylen or whatever the white stuff is called that is used for insulation and that used to be around all electrical devices. You know the white stuff which you can break into small roundy pieces and looks like snow. So I got few sheets of this, a electrical flooring mat and some nice mats. Opened up one side of the kennel, lined the walls from inside, put up a curtain for the door to keep the snow and winds off a bit more, lined the flooring and closed the wall up again. It is now officially in better living conditions than my own cottage which can be used only in summer! The kennel now keeps warmth, the cats moved in but are not liking the fact that they can not see anything because it is closed house and they are wild homeless cats. The floor is +22C at all times, which also keeps the canned food not frozen. It used to freeze within a minute or less even. Now I put food to the floor and it’s just about right. They will eat it anyway within a day. Which means I have new challenge – how to make it so that there is food all the time so I don’t have to drive there and spend minimum 2 hours every time I go there. I realise the canned food is impossible to put somehow to come out by portions. But the dry food could run from the silo-looking bottle down to the feeding bowls. The same way we used to feed our chickens, you just need to top the silo up. I need to go to the building materials shop for some inspiration :). Is it me turning into that dreaded catlady? 🙂 Or is it already “done” with no return….

I just thought about one of the best comedians ever – Carlin. I am pretty sure it was him who said: “opinion is like asshole, everyone has one”.

We here, in dark and cold bit of Europe, don’t have therapy. 

We have wine, tequila, beer, vodka, rum, seaside, endless forests, blues and rock. And dark cozy nights.

With those two thoughts I shall leave you all,

Good nite to everyone

Good nite JD