I bought one TV set some 20+ years ago. Whatever was “in” that time, it’s flat, it’s colour TV, it has remote control. My first very own TV. Until that I did not own anything really. I had clothes, most I had sewn myself. I had shoes. I had some bags. I was living true vagabond life so I had to keep travelling light. Travelling meant constantly searching for place to stay. In other words I was homeless more or less constantly. In other words I kept on moving from one place to another for many years. Once I counted I changed place for 4 or 5 times a year. Not that I wanted to change, I had to. For obvious reasons usually – how long can you stay in one room apartment where there live young couple and their German sheperd. Or literally a dorm that got blown up and you have no more stairs to get down out of the house…. well, you would not get up to the third floor either, right. So in a way the living situation was not ever going to settle unless I settle it myself. 

Luckily I got the highest paid job while winning 33 of my male opponents and that moment my life changed. The job was technical, masculine really, I still am the only female in this industry in this particular bit of the industry. I love this job, I know all there is about this job. I would not change anything about it. And being woman in this biz I feel advantage everywhere. Not one man expects me to be any use in this biz and they are always in for surprise. Surprise in such level that they used to cut my tyres 3-4 times a week. If that’s not proof of a pathetic scared competitor then what is 🙂

So right after being in charge of this international biz for six months I was heading for bank. Or banks really. I needed their offers for mortgage. Got three offers, all totally weird comparing to each other. 

One offered me a million because I had excellent traits including my amazing high income, masters degree and all these languages and stuff. 

Second offered me 100000 because I was the lousiest client they had ever seen and I was single. They suggested me finding a man and come then to ask for that mortgage again. And I am not joking. 

Third started to dicdate stupid stuff and I said to them: please don’t bother, you are embarassing yourself and your bank.

So, as in this part of the earth bank requires downpayment for real estate I booked the time to sign contracts in the two banks that agreed to deal with me. Monday morning I went to the second bank that offered me 100k, got it signed, and as per contract the funds popped on my account on Thursday, three days later. Thursday morning I went to that first bank to sign mortgage after I made downpayment of 100k that I had on my account. 

So I got my very first own home and started to fill it up with furniture, kitchen and all sorts of machinery. Set all that up and then ordered the TV guy because THAT, my dear readers, was working with proper cables and connections that time! My TV cables ran under the hardboardfloors, the antenna was somewhere on top of the house and there was tree different service providers so you could not really connect that yourself without screwing something up. Anyways, it was the only thing I could not connect by myself like I connected all the washingmashine and lamps and owen. So the TV got connected, and voila! 

It was a big year for me. 

Bought my cottage

Got pregnant

Got divorced when I was 5 months in

Mom got stroke and was paralysed and unconcious

Bought apartment on ground floor so I could wheel in my Mom when she gets out

I got stroke and was paralysed when I was 8 months “in”

I gave birth in Jan

Mom died in March

Got fired the next day. Boss came all the way from Germany to tell me that I was not allowed to go around and give birth and abandoning my work duties 🙂

Buried my Mom

Moved in to my brand new apartment when I only had a bed and sofa and TV there. No need for all this huge space now because no wheelchairs coming in….  

By the sea. By lovely park. I still live here.

All I wanted to tell you today was in fact that until 1985 or so we only had black and white TVs. And I was the remote even tho we had just two channels. And that’s why I only later in life found out that Harry Belafonte, my first ever love, was dark skinned. For me he was just a stunner. I remember watching in awe the movies that I did not understand much of but boy, he could sing!!! These eyes, these teeth, this voice!!! I first saw black person in 1993 in Germany. And no, we are not white priviledged at all coz we never attacked anyone, we never owned anyone and we pick our own potatoes. And we are poor as fuck.

Gotta run now!

Waiting for Sandman to come

Stay cool and hot

XOXOX