Spring is in the air! Sun came out for 5th time this year and I saw dustrolls emerging from under the bed to get some sunshine. I kid you not. They appeared and layed out in the sun, enjoying long lost warmth, I could bet they had their eyes closed taking in every single ray. When there is no sun shining my home looks impeccable, clean, in order. The moment the sun comes I am both scared and pleased beyond measure. I know if I open them eyes I see them. I am not sure what magic it is or is it just me holding my head high 🙂 in order to fight depression but I never see any dirt in winter or rainy day. I suspect the dustrolls are somewhere, especially considering my pets and lazyness. These two combined are to guarantee endless dustrolls under the bed. But I also think the cats running around doing their weird parcour on walls and under the furniture makes enough air movement all the dustrolls literally go hide under the beds. Yes, I do check under the beds every now and then and the sight always amazes me. They are all there. Waiting in fear or anticipation…. for that ride to freedom through the handle of the hoover.

Bingewatched the Jurassic movies, two nights in the row, good memories even though that would never ever be  my choice of theme but felt the need to serve my company. And, me as an avid TikTokker, I follow Sir Sam Neill in TikTok where he makes very funny vids. Somehow these two bits of information came together and my friends and I ended up having two movienights in a row. Before that I bingewathed Desperate Housewives for few days straight from the morning on into wee hours vithout noticing anything around me. Yes, Mike is still hot af and it’s really good to see some almost real adultlife on screen. Adulting, that’s boring in general, so I took the time to air my head.

Doing my mood board update for spring. I always have power growing in spring once the darkness ends. Tho tomorrow is one important day, 2nd March, that takes me back into darkness altogether no matter whats the weather. It’s the anniversary of my Moms death. It makes me sick. The investigation closed as chief of hospidal admitted to my face: “Yes, our deeds, or, in fact deeds we did not do, resulted in your mothers death. But it was five years ago so we are saved by the bell”. That in human language means they did not treat her at all, they admitted it. And it also means in human language that they killed her. Just by opening window in deep nordic winter, you know, to air the room. And by not giving her any food. Professional caregivers, that’s what they were and still are. But that’s not the mood I am about to put on my mood board, oh no! I am celebrating everything good, including sunshine, money, humour, and my goal of moving out of this hell of a country pretty soon. I can come visit, but it’s not life here. It’s constant survival and I don’t care to participate in it anymore. I despise what has my homeland been turned into, by our useless talking heads. Everyone I know is near bankrupt. And yes, I know just common people. Can you imagine our prime minister has only 12 years of school, like, gymnasium :), whatta joke. 

Back to my moodboard. I shall finish my book. I shall move to southern bit of Europe. I shall build my life in better climate literally and businesswise. I feel stupid that I have not used my knowledge earlier, after all I speak 7 languages and it’s just dumb not using this knowledge extensivly. Sort of. Here I use only three languages every day. Which is a waste. I call anyone out to cast me in some movie with exotic blondes speaking funny languages like Finnish or serious villain-Russian fluently. Or German villain like in Die Hard. You will not regret :). I will better my life this year. Horoscope too promises me wealth beyond measure. They all state I have inborn right for wealth :). I shall claim it. You are welcome to join in!

Enjoy the weekend, enjoy the soon arriving spring with all the green leaves and singing birds.

XOXOX