The Mad Hatter

So. It only took 11 months to get common sense, eyes opened, talks heard by germans, americans… whatta shame. No words to describe the level of dissapointment. As if the people deciding are retards. And I am not kidding. To be not able to hear and understand what we, neighbours of terrorist state Russia, were telling them. Telling from the first week of the war. I think it was the day eight when president of Ukraine called for help with heavy weapons. Nothing. Talking heads thinking they know russian mentality, understand russians are crazy stupid and arrogant? Right. No. They lived in strangest of illusion for months, fuelled with stupid hope that there will be sense (?!) in russians heads ;). The main dissapointment for us – us, the countries that have been occupied by and suffered from constant russian arrogance and stupidity for years! – was that nobody listened to us. We, the neighbours, bordering countries. Together with Ukraine. The fact that nobody listened us cost Ukraine the life of hundred thousand civilians, including kids. And its still counting. I dont know how the talking heads can live with themselves now. Its their fault. Would they decide right when this horror started. Would they decide to send the tanks immediately or at least within few months…. but no, they are smarter and sure russians are too (you know thats irony, right)

Unfortunately, after decades of observing russians, working literally exclusivly with them all my adult life (because they were sent here after IIWW). Plus, my childhood was exclusively under russian occupation (and now I can say, terrorism!), I feel and know for a fact that I know this strange species that is called “russians” very well. And that is not a good species to put it mildly.

They say good judgment comes from experience, and most of that comes from bad judgment. We had no bad judgement. Everything was decided without our participation. We only learned to live, survive and shut up. Anyone slightly rebellious was prosecuted, killed or simply sent to vast wonderland of Siberia with one way ticket. In cattlewagons. For later reference, the word and the meaning of “cattle” seems to be of primarly importance when talking “russia”. So when you were stupid enough, living in your barely surviving “farm” – meaning one cow and a handful of chickens – and had your cow knocked up. You know what happened? The russians came and took the calve, killed it and ate it. Smarter ones waited for autumn and came and took the slightly grown calve. And killed it and ate it. What, what did you say, they paid in cash? 😉 humor kept us alive, yes. If you protested, you got kick in the head with the rifle. If you protested more, you got shot right there. Same with any cattle. Only one cow was allowed, only 4 or 5 sheep, pigs … well, the average healthy pig had 11 to 13 tiny piggies. Had. You maybe saw them. If “lucky” you get to feed them for few months until the representatives of russian terrorists came to collect.

That horror we lived. Killing civillians was, ofcourse, seldom after 1950ies, because we learned to shut up. We let them take whatever they pleased. Only to spare own lives. However, under oppression one learns new skills. And, as stated beforehand – russians are not very bright. More like stupid cattleforce. I am still amazed how this kind of people live rather long life. In theory they should not survive, evolution should work. But we have modern medicine, which now has served us in a negative way.

So the shootings sort of ended and harassement became more or less “civil” by the 1960-1970. They just harassed, observed, stole our livelyhood by declaring limits and taking “excess”. We sort of obeyed. Because our lands here have some 60-80% of forests, and we live here all our lives we knew these forests as our backyard. Our first neighbour lived 3 kilometres away. Roads were minimal and these same roads we have today. All in between the roads were huge masses of forests. Forests that we knew as our backyard. And in these forests we hide all our “excess” cows, lambs, horses. And these idiots (read: russians) never realised. I worked as a child from when I was almost 5 years old. My tasks were to find our animals in the forests or hide them in the forests. I had to find cows on time twice a day. It took some time for them to realise where and when to come and they started showing up by themselves on time. But the work still remained as if the leader of cows died I had to train them again next year. And we had to change the location every year too, in case some helpful neighbour ratted us out.

I am proud of my country, our rebellious souls, our clever minds, our surviving skills, our look to bright future. We dont go back. Ever. Never. That is exactly why we understand Ukraine. That is exactly why we support and help Ukraine. Because we are today and have always been pain in poo-tins arse.

In a way this is exactly what todays talking heads in Europe and USA dont understand. These people never had hunger, never suffered oppression, never worked for free or for a piece of bread. They never were forced to speak strange language. They never were punished for speaking own language. They never were forced to sing hail Lenin and march with red russian flags. They never got paid for months work in toilet paper. Monthly salary was pile of toilet paper. Not money. Not even vodka. 

This is what president of Ukraine remembers from his childhood. Maybe. Maybe even worse as he is jew (in our country that was not much of emphasised “problem”. We did not have any racisim or nazism as far as my family and friends remember. And again, it doesnt mean in some end of the country there was 1 skinhead or looney). We are the same age with president of Ukraine. And that is what I remember. This is galaxies away from the memories of todays talking heads of Europe and USA. And that is why they dont understand that there will be no going back, no going back to be part of anything of russian origin. Russians live like cockroaches, within their own shit. Whatever they touch turns into shit. Whatever they say makes no sense. They are raised cattleforce, sent to die as cattleforce. Todays russians never had own ability to think. The bright people were killed or sent to Siberia. What was left was bottomscrapers, meat for cannons. And thats not utopia. Thats facts!

The bright russian people today – not to be offended by the above, dear, but you are a rare vision. I start to tremble when I hear russian language. I have enough of the cockroaches. They are fucking everywhere. And from only a look you cant separate the normal people from the arrogant russian nazis. That is why we are cautious. Because your nation tried for over 80 years to destroy us, many of you still consider being of higher quality than locals but still dont speak the local language. Where else in the world you behave like shit? Everywhere. In Turkey, in Egypt, in Germany. Everywhere. You are referred as cockroaches. To my surprise you are referred as cocroaches EVERYWHERE! 

That is what Europe and USA dont understand. They have no experience surviving russian occupation. And they ignored what we said right from the start of the war. Because they thought we are bluffing. Because they thought poo-tin is all fluffy and pink, must not be insulted or he will cry.

That is why Ukraine will not give up. That is why we, neighbouring countries support Ukraine so fiercly giving our last to them. 

I actually lost my work because of the war. And I actually shot myself to my foot when I turned to our governent with request and actually rather strict order! to close the borders for food supply. My company moved foodstuffs to Russia. Whole trainloads of it. Years and years. And months after the war started. Then I realised I am feeding the terrorists and called up our government to close the borders. Close the borders for me. I knew I will be without income. But I rather starve than feed the killingmachine. Government finally closed the border for foodstuffs somewhere in October or November 2022 and by now all my savings are gone. Its February 2023 in few days. I will support Ukraine. I will suffer because of it. I am ready. 

NO GOING BACK. 

Slava Ukraini!

Sorry for the silence, folks, have been busy surviving the ever suddenly coming winter. Its not that terribly cold yet and I hope most people have changed the tyres for winter ones. First few days of snow were fun, but also expensive for the ones who ended up crashing.

That bit was written almost a mont ago. After that it all went to limbo. Winter came and all superproblems became again terribly visible. Now two big horrors: for what seems to be going on a whole eternity the Russian invasion to Ukraine and, looooong baking revolution in Iran. My father was a man of few words. He rarely talked. Usually he simply did not give a fuck because most of the time and most of the big things in world was not for simple commoner to change. And he kept his focus on what he was doing. Yapping about things that did not concern him was totally not his style. So, when he suddenly in random time and random place spoke everyone was listening. I remember it as if it was yesterday. That how significant each time he said anything was. It was sometime during 1984 or 1985, after listening to news, world news, not just local ones!, from radio. The news were about Iran, their mulla (or whatever their titles were that time) Khomeini, their new rules for women or of some sort. It was not quite understandable to me (plus the word mulla means a whole different thing in our language:) ) as I was just a preschool child and I didnt understand even the words that were said nor the concept of other countries like Iran excisting! For us was “only important Stalin, Lenin, Moscow and Russkii Mir” and that we had to keep pretending liking this shit to survive. Being betrayed by own close neighbour or even relative was more or less common practice. We nodded to everything, agreed to everything, but inside was boiling. Our goal was to survive and wait for the suitable moment. So, some day in 1984 or 1985 my father, sitting at the kitchen table looking through the window to eternity behind the forest said, particularly to nobody: “So this is the end of Iran as we know it”. And went to work. Nothing else. These words were said with such passion, regret, sadness, confusing mix of emotions, that I remembered them my whole life. This sentence kept me from going to Iran 4 times, as a tourist. I always wanted to visit this region, but understanding the constant conflicts throughout the years and my fathers words, I never went. Be it Syria, Iraan, Iraq, even Arab emirates, even northern Africa – nothing good can come of places where the ruler is religion. Or USA for that matter. Nothing good comes from religion, especially forced on religion. Never has come, never will come. Nothing.

Not a single atheist or pagan ever went to school with AK47 for killingspree. Also, the one lunatic who went to kindergarden in Belgium and cut the throats of some 13 or 17 one-year old babies. Certainly not pagan, certainly not atheist. Who were raping the church-choir boys? Bad guy from the ghetto? Nope. Who was it killing the orphans, in Ireland, in Romania, in Canada? Bigfoot? Nope, these were nuns! NUNS! Or these orphans and indigenous kids just disappeared to thin air? Yes, in the name of god, a fairytale. In hopes that you go to heaven. Or heaven plus 72 virgins. Let me tell you. There is slightly more realistic fairytale, its called Santa Claus. And he actually excists! No? Well, I have been to his place twice. You, however, havent seen god with your own eyes :). Cinderella too excists, you can find her after 40 minutes ride from Paris central station. Or an hour or so from Orlando airport? I guess…. Oh, I know, you say these are not real, they are characters played by actors and actresses. Yeah, well, your god is not even played. And the only thing you confirm by believing in god is that you are off your rocker! To claim you have invisible friend who created all the world and is the true leader… I mean, hell yeah, you sure can do all your dirty deeds as you know that you are forgiven in advance!!! How can you believe this nonsense! A few thousand years ago one guy died, so you can go ahead and do whatever you wish for because he has your sins covered 🙂 . This is the furthest you get from common sense. I sure am happy that I was born in non-religious country and with ability to think, use common sense and act as is normal, and in addition, most of us here do that without invisible bearded friend sitting on a cloud. Recommend highly for grown ups – dont drink, dont smoke, dont do things you cannot handle. And, switch on your common sense – fairytales are called fairytales for a reason – they are not true. Plus you are going to hell anyway, because your sins are yours and not forgiven. Invisible friend can not forgive you anything because he doesnt excist!!

Most times, it just gets down to common sense. Just dont start yapping about god/ allah/ or any other equivalent of fairytale to a person less than 18 years old. Anyone younger than that is not capable to understand nor choose nor decide on such matter. Dont force your beliefs on kids. That oppressive behaviour should, in fact, be considered a criminal act.

Anyways. I now declare I found motivation to start moving towards my longlost fit body. Just started on last day of November, slowly to move my ass so to speak. AND I kid you not! Immediately it worked in a way I lost some four hours later a whole 1 kilo! And I did not expect that because I stopped sport or any physical fast movement years ago. I still am bearable to watch by naked eye though as I always had physically challenging work, which included lifting heavy loads, walking long distances and in fact the most energy consuming task was always to keep warm. I kid you not! I could be 10-12 hours outside in – 10C or even -25C without any place to get shelter. So to survive is the main goal. Its not terribly difficult to keep warm if there was either intensive walking or intensive lifting involved. The worst day was when I just had to stand and wait. Wait, wait and wait a little more. Just standing in winter outside is the most dangerous. Your feet, your face, everything, every bit of your body sort of starts to shut down one by one. Its pretty ridiculous that its forbidden to leave and sit in car or wait it out somewhere inside some building, anywhere.

This bit of writing I started in November. I lost motivation as I was suffocating under the masses of idiots of ruzzia. They truly are magnificent in their brainless life. Its a true miracle these kinds of imbeciles live. Damn that modern medicine!

But now, I close this bit. Though a few days later, I consider it to be the closing of this dreadful 2022. I hope to find motivatio and good emotions to get out of this winter alive.

Happy New Year!

Slava Ukraini!